::Untitled 2::

Fear can be our undoing
While we lead lives fateful
We get over, take chances, keep moving
In a cold world so hateful

Feel, let loose, all that is scarred
To grasp predetermined destiny
Allow true love to repair what was marred
A gift right before thee

Don't turn away
You can overcome any catastrophe
Two minds and hearts forever strong
Words that reach out and through what you say
Tears manifested by the conveyance of your song

©'05 J.P.
Written: 12/20/05
Author's Note: "Calling out to someone who has hidden their heart, behind the walls they've built to protect themself from pain, hurt and suffering"
Inspiration: "I know what I would be getting myself into. Comes with the terrotory"
Dedication: Shadows

::To Think About::

A spiritual journey I have long walked
Knowing death I will not meet
Of a different war, many have talked
From a realm whose ground is beneath my feet

I walk the plains, I open the gates
Releasing those chains of the forgotten
For one your almighty hates
A play on favorites against their begotten

A maelstrom none of which can be conceived
By an already self-damned race
I am fallen, one of few bound by these chains deceived
By one who are many, do not show their face

I will not falter, my destiny is clear
As it is in the beginning, so it shall be in the end
Bringer of light I call to thee, do you even hear
It is never too late, to receive the gift I send

©'05 J.P.
Written: 12/23/05

::Bestowed::

Through ups and downs
With only you I wish to endure
Through thick and thin
With only you, I wish to travel
Even after death
My heart is with you
A memory never locked away
My soul urges on to find you
Rests not, until destination met
Through the darkness
Your embrace comforts me
And ending willed away
As light cuts through that bliss
Warmth your smile brings
A touch of whispers I miss
Laughter only you bring
Another, there is no comparison
To stand against
A fight for and beside you
You will find my oath
This is my promise
Something to die by
Cannot be broken
Chizzled into my soul
With you, I am home

©'05 J.P.
Written: 10/14/05
Author's Note: "Will have to reside here, in this heart"

::Thief IN The Night::

Dates so many predict
A coming of what they know not
The extent of a war so thick
Oblivious to the hell already in hot

Complex and undescribable this is
Live these days as they're the last
Start the New Year with a random kiss
Set aside all the worries of the past

An unfolding no other could comprehend
Wish for it not, it is not what you believe
A populace so unprepared for any end
You always expect to receive

You sit with a dependent mind
Under a false belief to a savior
That hinders your kind
Letting you tote such behavior

Smiling it will bring a sweet taste
Because this is what you expect
This shepherd, you wait for his embrace
A persona, the truth it's followers will not detect

Lead away to a place of beauty and awe
Designed for you, by you
Blind leading the blind to the hidden flaw
An ultimate deception you wanted too

Now you are the guest to their dinner
A buffet of lies to binge upon
I must say, a clever way to pick a winner
You will see, just before you are gone

©'05 J.P.
Author's Note: "About people who always make their various false predictions. And wait to this day for what they believe to be...little do they know, it is not."
Inspiration: Beliefs

::Renewed & Rejuvinated::

A fantasy born unto me
That one day, I will reawaken
To a new worldA new life
I am not afraid

This shell, only a casing
Which holds something too dark
For your prying eyes to handle
It is awake, and very much alive

Using it to bring upon the dawning
Of what many wait for
Their wait will not be in vain
A gift I am far too happy to oblige

Is insanity my friend?
The night walks beside me
Holding my hand
Keeping me safe and warm

I open those gates you linger next to
I will let the blood rain pour down upon you
With only you to face an explanation
In that field you stand alone

© '05 J.P.
Written: 11/22/05

::receptive::

Ones emotions of love are strong
A meaningful energy, which pours out unconditionally
Anything one would do to express these heights
With it, an unblind trust
When if broken, can stir whirlwinds and waters
A love such as this
Cannot be misused, or trampled upon
Should be returned in kind unequivocally
For if one sided this devoted one finds themself
There can be no calm within their soul
A fate worse than death, that will find them not
However, if one feels this love from another receptive
A blissful life, a way to make anything work or happen
Will be found with ease, obstacles once many, overcome
Like rushing falls of water, one pours this soul exposed
That glass of wine sipped, the entire bottle empty
On your table, all cards are playedIn your eyes one seen reception
In your smile, verification has sealed

©'05 J.P.
Author's Note: "Words sometimes can never express how deep ones emotions are for that of another. Especially when felt, layed to waste by a former regret."
Inspiration & Dedication: J.C.C.

::Stricken::

Terrors of an isolated source
Hits many in one day
Only then do a billion eyes open of course
Over time a war is underway
This would seem has an effect
To broaden people's minds, and wonder
The one cause to bring a flag erect
Over the land, once united, torn asunder
Series of epidemics fester to grow
Catastrophic, world-wide dismay
All-in-all it just goes to show
Every dog has it's day
Not one voice will know what to say
One nation, numb to the color
Due to numerous accounts, a false alarm
None too late will show an ounce of valor
For we aren't prepared to defend against harm
It isn't easy to run from a life taking disease
Men once strong, dispair over loss and torment
"Give us more to worry and panic over, if you please!"
No protests, only mourning of every moment
A present with undetermined futures null and void
Is the love we all once knew
Forgotten are the laughter of families who once enjoyed
Gathering of such are no longer few
Not many can recall the times
Music now of only grief and sorrow
A recording one dares no rhymes
Gnashing teeth, Weeping on the morrow
Finding you on the pot, taking a shit
With stock market in hand
This is your kingdom, rule it!
Paparazzi headline reads, "I do not understand!"

©'05 J.P.
Written: 11/04
Author's Note: "A time long overdue awaits us! Will we stand and take no more?"
Inspiration: He that frees us from life's tyranny

::Your Mind::

Lack of wholeness
At the bottom I linger
Waiting to be disposed
Waiting to be exposed
Out of secret thoughts
That belong to you
I slide down from the sides
Of your mind that keeps me
Locked in a room in waiting
To be freed or transferred
To an accomodation more suiting
Comforting for us both
Your test I cannot bear
For I am too stubborn to pass
Stop opening the door ajar
Only to quickly shut it
When you see me run for
An escape to let everyone know
Where we are, or how we stand
Hoping we stand at all
I am no other than one
Who carries this torch
Will you help me
Stand by my side
When it burdens me
Yake up the slack
Just as I will do the same for you
But I still remain hidden
From your words vital
Left wondering
How many beats remain
Of this heart before pain
Can bleed away through my tears
A release I yearn to feel
Only you determine my future
You know not which day
I'll wait behind your door ajar
To pull you to me
Hold you close, and never let go
Show you my heart
Am I in yours?

©'05 J.P.

::Surreality Of A Lifetime::

What is this
A sight mine eyes doeth kiss
A manifestation
From years of my imagination?!

Dreams once thought
Now reality these eyes have caught
A glimpse of something never known
All these years with you, I have grown

Cannot rip away
No words I can find to say
This off beat vertigo
Reacting somehow, to what I already know

Now there you are
Those eyes before me, yet so far
How can something so real
Make my head forever reel?

Is this some sick twist of fate?
A game of lies, to bait?
I defiantly refuse to play
For this life has had me in dismay

Please tell me this is true
These walls come down for only you
This time around, you'll be the last
As I right the wrongs of the past

©'06 J.P.
Written: in accordance 11/05

::To Me::

Your eyes are precious stones
I look in to see you
When they smile
Everything fades into oblivion
There is so much there with you
Soft lips
To kiss away all the pain
Melting into your soul, I bet I would
I have
Running my fingers through your hair
As I do
Mouthwatering taste of love
That drowns our our surroundings
Everything released between us
A tremendous quake of wanting
Urges played with
Until we take no more
So we take eachother

©'05 J.P.
Author's Note: A past, better left alone.
Dedication: J.C.C.

::Tormented Oblivion::

Astir, as my subconscious blocks my way
From yet another realm outta reach
At moments I have no say
With a start, my eyes breach
And shadows still endure
Darkness remains at dalliance
Rubbing from my eyes, the blur
Light has not yet encumbered brilliance
Trying again to find my way to sweet sleep
Tossing restless is all I do
A preoccupied mind is all I seem to keep
When these thoughts live within here, you

©'05 J.P.
Written: 10/02/05
Author's Note: "Trying to sleep, and cannot."
Inspiration: Josh

::Just There::

—A Quiet Upon The Storm—

—As a cloud forms in the sky
I feel the energy of nature
A brewing storm
Coffee eminates an aroma
From my residence

—The winds intensify
To carry it where it may go
Becoming nothing more
Than a forgotten breakfast
Most never look back on

—Briefly chilling patches cold
And shudder at the mere memory
Only remembered by the landmark
Of a storm due this day

—Leaving periodic warmth
Where silent chaos turns to dull green
Busy souls oblivious
Of nature's awakening screams
That soon attentions will turn to

—Stillness lingers in it awhile
As some look up at a sudden sound
Sheltering not until they are sure
Or 'til it walks through their threshold

©'05 J.P.
Written: 11/12/04
Author's Note: "Been looking through all of my previously written poetry, and other papers(since I am cleaning and organizing), and came across this one. Found it interesting."
Inspiration: Dreams I have sometimes and things I know, and cannot explain why I know
Dedication: Everyone

::Absu::

Without you in my life
There is only an abyss
Engulfing the soul of me
If harm shall come to thee
I am as the Norse Goddess, nanna
Who perishes of heartache
Burns at night—the waters carry

©'05 J.P.

::Pieces Of Me::

Doing everything I can
To hold it all together
An inspired mind of self
Just waiting for destiny to awaken
Ready to give up, but vigilant to hold on
To what? I am no longer sure
Yet I bust my ass to push on
I keep myself waiting and preserved
At a point I should of long ago
Inside loneliness is burning
And a devastated heart is yearning
Not wanting to let go
But I remain strong and true
Held together by some kind of emotional glue
Giving away—the longer and more the wait exceeds

©2005 J.P.
Written: 7/09/05
Author's Note: "Never sell yourself short"
Inspiration: Every part of me
Dedication: To those like me

::Intuitive Feeling::

A mystery has grapsed me
Coincidence, I do not believe
Now curiosity urges me to solve this
I have emerged from the abyss

A journey I want to take
If only to find a way to make
I only share my world among friends
Secret thoughts inside, someone sends

Left wondering, they are
As to why my attention goes somewhere far
And a smile draws upon my face
One not even the worse scenario can erase

Better days I know will soon come
Just so you know, I will not run
Open arms welcome only you
So smile with me too
I think I am loving you

Copyright ©2005 J.Polino
Written: 4/27/05
Author's Note: "I am currently in the middle of painting,
and just had to post this as it came to mind"
Inspiration & Dedication: Someone

—THOUGHTS—

What if everything we knew of today
Diminished tomorrow?
All we have now
We really have no use for
It may all be gone before we wake
If we wake at all

What if the one person
You never would of imagined
Is the one
But you pass one another by
Like a routine played out
The thought may have crossed you
But how easy it was to dismiss it
I still believe the two will just know from the get
I believe they already do

What if we are actually in a dream
Perhaps in a coma somewhere
And all who cross us here
Are really other people in the hospital
Either visiting someone who shares the same room
Or play a completely different role in our lives
Over there

And when you hear your name being called
It is that special someone you are in love with
If the voice ceases
Does this mean they have given up?
Or did so many years pass, that
They have passed themselves?

What if I love you
Would you know it?
Or would you not even catch on?
Would you runaway then?
Would you feel the same?
I'd hope you'd stop running
Long enough for me to show you
Share those words with you
So you too can feel how I do

What if I think about you
Every day, you'd fill my thoughts
What if I could touch you with those thoughts
Do you believe you could actually feel them?
What if I know....
Maybe...just maybe I WANT you to
Would it be so bad?
I do not feel so
I feel that I would welcome you
Here with me

Copyright ©2005 J. Polino
Written: 4/26/05
Author's Note: "Thoughts that randomly came into my ever thinking mind"

::This Child::

He waits
He fears
He may never come
To where he is to be
Will we alter his future
May or may not be
Unfortunate for you
This decision lies upon
In the plains, on the Earth
Wherever it shall be
Who are you that they speak of
I seen him
I looked into his eyes
I feel his power, his love
His purpose

Copyright© 2005 J.Polino
Written: 10/10/04

::Unforgiven::

What have I done?
The cause of your tears unknown
Desperation in searching you inside
Leaves me unanswered perplexity
Can I make it all better?
Never escapes my lips
Wanting to taste yours
Exploration of a world in you
I not yet know
But want to excavate
Every inch
Did I offend thee?
Certain hints lead back
To maybe I was wrong
Then regret that I ever had
And soon, confusion engulfs me
I am left wondering
Empty of answers or reasons
The blame is on my soul
Contrition never finds me

Copyright© 2005 J.Polino
Written: August 2004
Author's Note: "I basically thought of many things
regarding relationships, when I first wrote this one."

::You I Did Not Know::

Thoughts of you
Run through my mind
Though sweet winds blow
And still my soul
You bring no error to my days
All that is pastLong forgotten, gone away

Copyright© 2005 J.Polino
Written: April '04
Author's Note: "Written in regard to a man,
who suddenly made me think, wonder, and
seek the many answers that followed."

::Waiting For You::

On the other side
Anticipating and eager
To wrap my arms
Around a mind orgasm
By intellectual love
Stimulated from soft lips
That whisper away the pain

Struggle for a calm
Waiting your arrival
A mysterious sensuality
Slow love, mixing hungry passion
Needing you, wanting you
There for eachother

Copyright© 2005 J.Polino
Written: 4/23/05
Author's Note: "Passionate"
Inspiration & Dedication: He Knows

::Deep Sorrow::

After so many pearls have spilled
Upon a satin pillow case
Blood soaks day and night
A relentless emotion
An ocean dried over so many years
Expressions of various pains
That have haunted ones sleep
Waking days to be added more
A mountain of life's trials

O'mother I beg of thee
To bear with us
The hunger of peace
Strived for in a collective dream
That may never come

Copyright©2005 J.Polino
Written: 4/09/05
Author's Note: "Creative"
Inspiration: Deep Sorrow Painting. Title changed
to "Gaia's Sorrow"

::Untitled::

Someone's voice carries through the wind
Calling my name
Begging for rememberance
I listen to the message
Yet hear none
Speak a little louder
So I may clearly receive it

Copyright2005 J.Polino
Written: 4/9/05
Author's Note: "Poetically Inspired"

::Euphoria::

The downfall continued to rain
Upon her cheek did run
Releasing the foreboding pain
That denied the cure from Earth's sun

'Til along came a gentle touch
From one intimate hand, away did wash away the nile
Slowly gazing from under her lids much
To his surprise, better than the sun, upon her a smile

That forever clung to his beating heart
Those brown stones inset
Their brightened day, never did part
For what was embedded upon, they'd never forget

Copyright© 2005 J.A.P.
Written: April 2003
Author's Note: "Content"
Inspiration: Optimism
Dedication: Dreams Many

::Dreams::

A shadowy figure approaches me
Faintly, I hear the calling of my name
Through tears and confusion, I try to see
But fog, mist, and and the shadow remain
I feel my arms reach out to
The figure that must be the man
Inside, I feel... it must be you
Desperately hoping you'll take my hand
The closer you getI want you more
I can nearly smell your scent
Light shines, revealing the shore
Your sillouette becomes clear
The oceans waves crash against the rocks
While a growing smile, dries my tears
Gulls fly in harmonious flocks
Ascending from their slumbered rest
Closer we near one another still
Praying to the Gods...this isn't another test
The hope that love will finally fill
Escapes, as I wake
I search in vain
My soul begins to shake
I can not go through this again
Because I awake

Copyright© 2005 J.A.P.
Written: November 2003
Authors Note: Sleepless
Inspiration: Surreality
Dedication: "The shadowy figure who always
seems to haunt my dreams"

::Could It Ever Be?::

A heart searches
For what... it knows not
Aimlessly grasping for what it hopes is love
But the endless struggle of heartache... is all it finds
When once the thought of a chance for hope
Or something to believe in seems to be within reach
This is when the pain lingers more
For it was a deception of love
Dressed in disguise... to once again find a way
To embed it's mark of pain, agony, and destruction
Finally, the muscle hardens completely... turning to cold granite
Never to find rest... in a future so little have found...In Love.

Copyright© 2005 J.A.P.
Written: Spring 2002

::As Of This Moment::

Lost and alone, in a world of sorrow
With no return of a heart now hollow
Emptiness settles within
With each passing moment, there seems no end
Debating against my being, another chance to feel
What is it like for my heart, someone to steal
Since the inevitable appears to be, a chance very slim
I will not waste away, waiting for my physical image of him
It must be some cruel fate
A future I dearly hate
To wonder
To ponder
So the rain are my tears
Washing and hiding, my sadness and fears

Copyright© 2005 J.A.P.
Written: Spring 2003

::Alone Am I::

I sit and I wait
For what might be late
I have a future to unfold
With so many stories hardly told
I watch as my tears do crawl
Slowly seeking their untimely fall
Like the heart that dwells within my chest
I try to slumber, but find no rest
The multitudes around me, could never fulfill
The ache in my heart and soul, as time stands still
With but an arms length in my life
I have once wanted to uphold the knife
But I have no desire to end
The life I once wanted to send
To an abyss of darkness, no where to turn
Someone in my heart I yearn
No more pain, no more sorrow
I will wait for the morrow
Holding only hope, and the chance to share love
Once again...To hold the hands of my future love
My present best friend

Copyright© 2005 J.A.P.
Written: Spring 2003

::The Winds of Time::

A field of concept Truly has none
Unfortunately our society
Makes it possible
Where the wind takes me
I decide I shall go
But to whom-to where?
So I fall into my ivy blanket
Imagining where I'd go
Directly to my calling
That which opens many doors
I curiously peek into
To find answers, truth, paths
And most of all...you

©'05 J.P.
Written: 3/11/04 7:09a

::Presence::

I can feel youI feel your presence
The beckoning of your presence
I become still
Waiting, hoping, anticipating
Am I worthy of you?
My heart's pain becomes intense
This growing longing, immense
The time that passes fertilizes it
To endure much more I cannot
Because my tears are so many
Burning like acid to the core of me
Now the longing becomes need
Then evolves into ache
I believe now I may perish
Since my spun glass heart may break
The longer I can't be with you
The dreams have unrevealed answers
As to why they manifest
If only to be with you is to rest
I may never wake again

©2005 J.Polino
Written: 4/3/05 7:03a